by Kathryn Lott
The topic of my blog post came to me while thinking about a much-needed prompt question. The question was, while on Christmas break what did you reflect on about the Fellows program? In all honesty I did not reflect much on the Fellows program while on break because I was far too busy reflecting on now badly I react to my mother during the holidays. However, upon reading the prompt question I began to think about what I have learned during the Fellows program. My findings were not particularly flattering.
Being a Fellow has shown me how easily I deceive myself into thinking I’m a pretty nice person, as long as I’m not asked to fill up most of my time or have my plans disrupted. Basically, as long as I don’t have to do anything I don’t really want to, I am a peach (a peach, of course, being something delightful in its own right). That is a terribly dangerous mind set to have as a follower of Jesus and I am certain that is why He has me in the Fellows program.
Being in the Peninsula Fellows program has been the Father’s gentle way of growing me by confronting my unwilling attitudes. It’s like He asks me everyday, “You say you want to lay down your life for me, but what if I ask you to do that by adding another event to your week or another person who requires your time and energy?” The extent of my “time selfishness” has been a real slap in the face, but I know I want to be more like the Son, so I am very grateful that the reproof has come in the form of the Fellowship Program. I hope by having this concentrated time of refining, I will respond with more grace and patience in the future.
About the Author
Kathryn is a graduate of Central Christian College of McPherson Kansas. She has worked in construction for the last 2 years and hopes to use those skills in a mission capacity either in the U.S or over seas. Kathryn’s interests include but are not limited to Nerf guns, stained glass, and board games. She lives with Dwight and Jenny Kinter who are her host family and also life-long family friends.